A poem from a darker time, how wonderful it is to be free

It’s been a while
Since you’ve hurt me this badly
It was just a matter of time sadly
When I needed you, you weren’t here
You were out with friends drinking beer
And more? How will I ever know?
I guess it wasn’t even that long ago
That you blew me off and blew someone else
Then made me feel the fault was in myself
So talented at making me the bad guy
While you have fun and roll so high
All the while blaming me for your deeds
Leaving me with my unfulfilled needs
Then mocking me for the feelings I have
Holding my broken heart as you laugh
And spit in my face while I cry
Hurting me to the point I’d rather die